2025.5.12 18:22Grandma passed away5 days after my birthday1 day after Mother’s Day3 days before I quit my current jobGrandma is only 40 years older than meI planned to go home for 2 weeks after resignation to have some time with herBut now that never will
大约20年前在那么一个激烈的年代毕业 2000km沙丁鱼一样拥挤的车厢站立1天2夜 随到站的汽笛踏上生命中的第三座城市象牙塔 城中村棚户区 人才市场寻找一份对口的职位信息已然艰难老天爷关了无数道门后打开的一扇窗她给了你一次机会你就偷笑吧何况公司还不错那就签了吧 从此踏入职场适应贫民窟需要多久？一晚适应工作要多久？仿佛永无绝期阳春白雪的梦幻已然在现实中 崩塌深入骨髓的自卑 渐变成基因从此生活变成这样：在木板外邻居的撒尿声中早起在木板缝隔壁的做爱声中晚归在木板间老鼠蟑螂的骚扰中昏睡与失眠在木板上电话与电脑的
不知道怎么了最近脑海里总是浮现小时候麦田收获的场景汉江平原一捆一捆的麦穗满眼无边的金黄蝉鸣热浪的确良衣裳扁担和竹筐看不见的蓝色天空深处传来的夏鸟叫时不时在镰刀下出现的一窝窝鹌鹑蛋毛桃冰棒大人的交谈小孩的欢闹大路两排整齐的白桦树田间一两颗歪脖子垂柳哗啦啦的风起伏的麦浪蚕丝桑葚扎脚的麦茬年轻时的父母回不去的时光和故乡
“He is fine, that’s it, nothing wrong with it, most people are fine.. It’s not about him, it’s about why the fuck u think he deserves u..”“You deserve someone to make u feel like you’ve been struck by fucking lightning⚡️”Don’t u dare settle for just FINE
花香 ○ 叶黄 ○ 秋伤 ○ 心慌 ○ 远望 ○ 故乡
你有满腔的愤怒噩梦无法排忧你有沸腾的热血回荡荆棘之途你有年少的懵懂潜藏经久隐痛你有恍惚的年月遗憾一无所有
2018.6.13: get a message from brother said dad may has tumor.2018.6.15: fly to hospital in hometown.2018.6.17: Father’s Day.2018.6.18: Dragon boat Festival.2018.6.19: transferred to a specialist hospital in another province.2018.6.21: horrible C word was
Get up earlier than usual this morningThen receive a message from brother said grandpa may leave this world todayA very bad newsBook a ticket to homeThen get a call telling me grandpa is stableChange ticket to SaturdayHalf day passesGo have lunch with col
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