2018.6.13: get a message from brother said dad may has tumor.
2018.6.15: fly to hospital in hometown.
2018.6.17: Father’s Day.
2018.6.18: Dragon boat Festival.
2018.6.19: transferred to a specialist hospital in another province.
2018.6.21: horrible C word was confirmed, start treatment, start fight against tumor.
2018.6.24: back to earn money.
2018.8.07: autumn beginning day, discharged.
this’s the hardest days in my life,
cried a lot,
can’t understand why,
can’t face to my father,
don’t know how to comfort mom,
don’t know how can we get through this..
i feel deeply sorry for the family,
i’m getting paranoid and superstitious,
i start to become a vegetarian,
i start to call parents several times each day..
i’m getting angry to life,
i feel more fragile and lonely and depressed,
i study many many medical articles..
just wish everything is OK, hope everyone is well..
2018.10: grandpa passed away, the same day father has finished the 1st round of chemo.
2018.11: feel uncomfortable, been hospitalized.
2018.12: cancer transferred to lymph.
2018.12-2019.2: the 2nd round of chemo.
2019.2.17-2019.2.23: travel to Phuket islands of Thailand with parents, spends some happy days together with family.
2019.3: chemo continues.
2019.5: 5.1 festival, go home to visit parents.
2019.6.5: got a call from Mum, Dad isn't good, stop eating & drinking for 2 days, go home.
2019.6.6: Dad can have some meal yesterday.
2019.6.7: dragon boat festival. Tumor may block all his throat, can't eat or drink anything now.
2019.6.16: a very sad Father's day.
2019.6.19: around 1:58 pm, after 11 days and nights of starving & struggle, Dad passed away, leave us forever.
CRY ME A RIVER
2019.6.19-2019.6.21: funeral (the word I hate the most), heavy rain after months of drought.
2019.6.21: the Summer Solstice (夏至).
2019.6.26: the first 7th day after Dad was gone, heard the first cicada chirp of this summer.
2019.6.29: after spending the most hard 23 days of my life, back to Shanghai for work.
need to take care of Mum and the family.
need to be strong.